It has been a long time since I felt like I needed this community again. When I first came to these forums, the stress coming from middle school to high school and the loss of old friends and the fear of making new ones brought me here. This place meant a lot for me in terms of building who I became. I retained friendships from here ~8 years later, and while they were never strong, I still think fondly of them. I haven't felt the need to rejoin this community until now, another time where I am in this liminal stage where one social group is gone and I am still awaiting confirmation into another. That is what is tempting me back, the want for a community that does not have the intensity of graduate school, one that is not run by the office gossip and constant paranoia about being able to pay rent. I never look back on this community with disdain, rather, I felt like I grew out of it. Yet, here I am, again. Looking for a community that I know will accept me when I am feeling insecure and alone. It is tempting. I miss the old days of spending time writing ****ty RP posts, thinking I am the best at writing when in reality my dialogue is miserable. I miss restarting games for a challenge that would draw my attention for a few weeks. Maybe this is the community I need for now. I suppose I will have to consider it, but I remain conflicted. This public diary of sorts is quite therapeutic I must admit.